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  GOODBYE TO THE HILL

  by

  Lee Dunne

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  Published in 2013 by

  Andrews UK Limited

  www.andrewsuk.com

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  Copyright © 2013 Lee Dunne

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  Dedication

  For Maura my wife always

  Our First E Book

  Chapter 1

  My mother came to the hospital at Clonskea. I was going home after a dose of something or other. She held me so tight I thought I’d break and she cried bitter tears that wet my face. I tried to tell her I was coming home, that I wasn’t going to die and go to Holy God in heaven. She sobbed something awful and she kissed my face. I cried too then. When my mother suffered, my heart couldn’t hold back.

  It was a long way home to The Hill, and when we had to walk it I knew that Ma didn’t have the bus fare. My legs were as weak as valve rubber but I kept my mouth shut. If she’d had any money we’d have been riding.

  On the way down we went into the convent at Milltown. Ma held me with one hand. In the other she carried a half-gallon can. An old nun filled the can with soup and bits of meat and potatoes and my mother thanked her, and there was a lot of talk about the good God in his almighty glory, blessing you and yours. I hated the sight of the nun in her long robe or whatever it’s called, but I gave her a smile that warmed her feet. I liked the look of the soup.

  Ma cried a little all the way down Sandford Road and she told me how unhappy she’d been and how glad she was to have me back again.

  Poor oul’ Ma she was still at it when we got to the lavatory in Ranelagh. I held her hand as tight as I could and I loved her more with every step that my rubbery legs took. I told her not to fret, that everything would be alright. She looked down at me and her large sad eyes gave a little smile. It was as if she believed everything I said and I smiled back and gave her hand a squeeze. The year was 1938 and I was just over six years old.

  Many people can remember things that happened to them when they were six. I know I can. I can also remember how I felt about things, and that day as we went into a kitchen, one bedroom, a scullery and a lavatory, I was glad to be out of the hospital but still a bit sad to be returning to the flats and The Hill.

  The Hill was a scab, a sort of dry sore on the face of Dublin. The hospital was so nice and clean, even though the smell of all that disinfectant drove you up the wall. There in the ward you knew that everything was in its place, which was a feeling I liked. In the house, as we called the flat, the comb was in with the spoons and the knives and the boot-polish brush, and you slept three to a bed and you had to wait your turn to go to the lavatory. I didn’t like this. There was something else too, though I couldn’t make up my mind what it was. A long time after, I realised it was the sheets on the bed in the hospital. I liked the feeling of the sheets.

  Nobody else in the house seemed to notice that I was home. Even then I thought that it didn’t cost them a wink of sleep whether I lived or died. Believe it or not, that’s exactly how I felt. On The Hill you learned early, and you were more likely to be told to go and shite by a four-year-old than you were by its mother.

  By the age of then you knew all about puddin’ clubs and doses of the pox and you smiled sardonically, even though you didn’t know that that’s what you were doing, whenever anyone talked about Santy Clause and the Stork, and all that rubbish. And when Joe Soap got married after seven Mass on a week day you knew that his missus was going to spend her honeymoon in the labour ward at the Rotunda. That was how it was on The Hill - you learned fast whether you wanted to or not.

  At that time I couldn’t stand my oul’fella. He never had any money to give me and he was always stopping me doing things that I wanted to do. He didn’t work much but he was out all day trying for a job. Usually he was in awful temper and shouting at Ma, and he’d give you a clip in the ear if you got in his way. I used to think he had it real cushy. Ma fed us somehow, so why was he always sitting there as though he had the weight of the world on his shoulders. I couldn’t understand him, then.

  My brothers and my sister were just a bloody nuisance. They ate grub that I could have done with myself and they were always in the way, pushing me around and kicking me up the arse, and if it hadn’t been for Roy Rogers and The Sons of the Pioneers I don’t know what I’d have done.

  Somehow, Mondays and Thursdays, I got the money for The Prinner. Over the door were the words ‘The Princess Cinema’ and for a shilling you could have the best seat in the house, and for sixpence if you were a kid. The cheaper seats were eight pence for adults and four pence for kids. Myself, I always went to the four-penny rush. If I was ever lucky enough to have a tanner, I’d buy two pence worth of broken biscuits and munch my way through the ‘folly an’ upper’. I saw Flash Gordon and Captain Marvel so many times that I knew most of the dialogue off by heart.

  After Hopalong Cassidy faded, Roy Rogers was ‘The King of the Cowboys’ and Trigger was ‘The Smartest Horse in the Movies’. I knew this was right. It said so on the screen just before the picture got started. I was crazy about Roy though he did sing. He was no Buck Jones; how I cried when he was burned to death; but he left Gene Autry standing. Honest to God, Gene Autry used to drive me out to the bog. You couldn’t take him seriously, I mean, he sang through his nose.

  With Roy it was different. He could knock out six crukes and not even lose his hat. And in the last ten minutes he always got hit on the head with a bottle or something and every kid in the picture house would be hoarse from yelling at him to look out for the fella behind him.

  ‘Roy! He’s behind you! Jeysus, look out!’

  ‘Duck, Roy! Mind your head,’ and so on.

  But he never seemed to hear and he got a right belt on the head and fell on the floor. Then the crukes tied him up and went off to rob the Stage Coach.

  Roy would wake up in about twenty seconds and he’d give a whistle and good old Trigger, the smartest bloody horse in the movies, would answer his whistle and kick the shack down. Then he’d untie the knots with his big teeth and Roy’d jump into the saddle and he’d be off like the clappers, firing two hundred and forty nine shots out of his Six Gun!

  After a good gallop he’d come across ‘The Sons of the Pioneers’, who just happened to be riding by, singing their latest number. ‘Cool Water’ was a good one; written by Bob Nolan, the fella with the big chest; and when it was finished they’d all go after the crukes. There’d be a terrific fight and the head cruke would jump on his horse and make his getaway. Roy would see this and leap from the top of a rocky ledge straight into Trigger’s saddle. Then the chase was on. Lord help the villain when Roy caught him. It was usually a fella called Roy Barcroft that played the part, and he got knocked out more times by ‘The King of the Cowboys’ than my granny did by her second husband. And I loved every second of it.

  Not only was I in the saddle every foot of the way with Roy Rogers. In the week that followed, me and the other kids would relive the whole thing forty-two-times, and whoever had the box-cart woul
d be ‘The Chap’.

  ‘The Chap was the hero, Roy. A box-cart was what it sounded like, an orange or a lemon box on top of an axle and two wheels. These normally came off some poor oul’ one’s pram, and with two bits of wood as shafts, the Stage Coach was ready to roll.

  ‘Listen, yis all can’t be cowboys. Some of yis has to be fuckin’ Indians!’

  This was always the problem, everybody wanted to be the chap. The chap chased the stage down the lane and stopped the runaway horses. When he went for his gun; his hand came up like a flash from his hip, first two fingers forward, the thumb cocked, last two fingers folded against the palm like the butt of a gun; he outdrew the villain every time. This was no accident, there had to be some kind of production bit.

  ‘I’ll be The Chap. And you must be the cruke and you must go for you gun and I must beat you to the draw,’ so you see the villain never had a chance. Anyway, I stuck with being an Apache, or one of the crukes, until I was about eight. Then I realised that the fellas who got shot in the earlier part of the picture weren’t very important and I got to thinking if you couldn’t be Roy then the head cruke was favourite.

  In the end I got myself a really strong box, stole an axle and a thick pair of iron wheels and I paid one and six pence for the best pair of shafts ever seen on The Hill. I had a box-cart to beat them all and from then on I was always the chap. I shot more Indians and outlaws that all the cowboys in Hollywood put together, and inside my funny little mind I was certain about one thing, I was never going to be an Indian again.

  The box-cart earned its keep too. I used it to carry sacks of turf for old women who were on their last legs. This was usually worth a deuce or even three pence and once I did so well that I took my little brother Larry to The Prinner on the strength of one days work. That was a big mistake.

  Larry yelled and cried every time a car or a train came towards us on the screen and I had to keep belting him on the head with a lump of sponge that I’d torn out of the arm of the seat. It didn’t stop him crying but I kept doing it anyway.

  An oul’one sitting behind us in her eight penny seat started complaining, and the gunner-eyed attendant came up and dragged us out. He took the sponge off me and gave me a belt in the face with it. I gave him a kick in the shin but it didn’t hurt much on account of me having no shoes on, and he gave us another few belts with the sponge and threw us both out on the street.

  I was going to give Larry a good kicking till I saw how upset he was. So I told him to shut up even though he wasn’t saying anything, and I took him home. Ma had to give him a bath that night and she had a terrible job cleaning his trousers. As you might well imagine, I didn’t take him any more.

  As well as going to school I was working too. Before and after school I did two paper rounds and I was pulling in five and ten pence a week, and it was a gift to see the worry go out of her face when I put the five shillings in her hand. Mind you, I hated the paper rounds. They shagged up my chances of playing football after school, and if there was one thing I loved it was football.

  In the summer I robbed more than my fair share of apples and pears and I used to flog them for three and four a penny on the way to school. Many’s the tree I stripped to get my picture money. You see, most of the kids were forever hungry so anything you could eat was always a quick seller. Sometimes I used to give two or three to a fella to do my sums for me. We were doing long division in class now and I just couldn’t get the hang of it. When I added three and three and got six I was delighted with myself but that was as far as it went.

  Also, on Fridays and Saturdays a lot of people on the paper rounds used to leave out the money for the milk man, and though there were a right few kids at it, I never nicked a penny. If you got caught you could end up in a reformatory school, and I heard, from a kid that had been in one, that they were bloody awful places to be sent to.

  I didn’t mind the winter either, because I never suffered from the cold once I was on the move. Sometimes, lying in bed I felt cold and often wished we had a few more coats to throw over us. But running along in the rain or even snow was okay. Even the three winters when I had no shoes didn’t bother me. I ended up with the toughest pair of feet in the flats, and none of the other kids could touch me when we raced across the stones. This was a square half acre of ground that was all stones and gravel, and the kids used to play football on it. Some of the flats faced onto it and the oul’ones were forever coming out screaming about their windows getting smashed. Nobody minded them very much; football, along with religion and poverty, was about the only thing that the kids had in common.

  One day when it was snowing, I kidded Ma that I was too cold to go to school. She sent a message down to the Master who sent back word that I would get a voucher for a pair of boots if I went to school. These were a charity issue and they had a stamp on the souls to stop them ending up in the pawn office. But still some of the women managed it by burning off the stamp with a red-hot poker and getting Maggie Flood to take them down at lunchtime.

  That was the best time to find the young apprentice alone and he’d do anything for Maggie. She’d be in the pawn office for ages and one day when, another kid and my self followed her down and tried the door, it was locked. The women used to smile, and I heard two of them talking when I was above in the dispensary waiting to see the doctor. They said it was size of her tits that did it with the apprentice, but I couldn’t understand what they meant. To me, Maggie Flood looked just like a big cow.

  Anyway, I never got the boots and I was glad about that. They were black ugly things and you could tell by looking at them they were for nothing. Ma was angry with the master for not keeping his promise but I thought he was alright. And, anyway, I loved running around in my bare feet.

  Chapter 2

  There was a right load of young ones living in the flats, but I didn’t like any of them very much. They were all as common as ditch-water, and when I saw some of the young fella trying to kiss them an’ all, I used to wonder how they could do it.

  All the times I’d seen Buck Jones and Tom Mix and Hopalong Cassidy, Roy Rogers, Ken Maynard and Charles Starret, The Durango Kid -

  In days of old when men were bold

  And the bandits ran the skid

  Out of the hills came a daring young man

  They call him The Durango Kid...

  I’d never seen one of them kiss the mot. They rescued her, sure - in the end though, they always rode off on their own. I used to love it when they turned around in the saddle and waved goodbye, just before they went over the hill, into the next adventure. So I couldn’t understand fellas who chased snotty-nosed girls and tried to give them a kiss and all the rest of it. I thought it was much better to play ‘Rough Riders’ or ‘Gang Busters’, but one day, when I was below in the shop waiting for the papers, Janet Blair changed all that.

  I was nearly thirteen, and I was the quickest draw in the flats, and I felt smashing then, having just learned to ride a bicycle. This was really something; there weren’t many kids on The Hill that could ride a bike.

  This particular bike belonged to a fella who was going

  with a girl from the flats. You’d see him waiting in the evening until her mother and father had gone down to devotions in Rathmines Church, then he’d slither into the place like a fella in an awful hurry. I don’t know what him and the mot used to get up to, but he was never in a rush to come out again, so I started to take a loan of his bike.

  I couldn’t sit up on the saddle, so I used to stick one leg under the crossbar and ride it like a monkey. It was great gas, with me imagining that I was Roy Rogers on Trigger, galloping after the outlaws. Once or twice I got a puncture; there was always glass lying about on the streets; and I just pushed the bike back and left it where I’d found it. Then one day before your man went in he put a padlock on it, and that really annoyed me. I was so used to having a ride by now that
I just knew I’d have to get a bike of my own. That was my first dream.

  This particular day, the old bitch I delivered evening papers for was awful slow numbering the different ones, and I saw Janet Blair on the cover of this magazine. She was in a bathing costume like I’d never seen before and I lost my breath, beautiful she was. Her chest seemed swollen too, but it wasn’t like a cow’s like Maggie Flood’s. It looked all soft and nice and clean and when I touched her here on the cover, I swear to God, I got a thrill that nearly killed me.

  I swiped the magazine before I left, and I looked at her picture every foot of the way on the paper round. Even when I put the magazine in my pocket I could still see her lovely face and the shape of her, and that was the first time I fell in love.

  After that day, I more or less stopped going to ‘The Prinner’. It was no good going: all the time I wanted Roy and the others to start kissing the mot; all they ever kissed was the horse; so I began going regularly to The Stella.

  This was another picture house further up Rathmines Road, and the best seat in the house cost about one and eight pence. They got a different type of picture up there, with only the odd cowboy thrown in. I began to see Clark Gable and Charles Bickford and George Murphy and lots of others, and there was always a terrific mot in the story.

  Now, to see the hero trying to kiss the mot every chance he got seemed to me to be smashing. And if Janet Blair was on I used to work the more, do anything to get the money, to go every night. I would have married that girl if I’d had the chance,

  When Ma found the magazine in my coat she gave me a right-hander and said she was going to tear it up. It was old and torn by now - I’d had it for the best part of six months - but I asked her not to do it. She looked at me in a strange sort of way and then she handed it back to me. Then she hugged me and held onto me for a minute. When she looked at me again I had the feeling that I didn’t look the same to her anymore.